These words struck me this morning as odd. It made me think about how much I strive for peace during the week amongst the chaos of a 5, 3 and 1 year old while making all our food by hand, while trying to keep a house somewhat clean, and a run a small business. I grasp at every chance of peace and quiet I can get. However, I don't think that my grabbing is the kind of peace Jesus is talking about.
"The peace that the world cannot give" was won by the price of suffering and death on a cross. When I think of peace, I don't think of bloodshed. But I should. There is no peace without going first through the cross, and yet, I continually try to find my easy way out for a moment of peace and quiet, which is nothing more than that- momentary worldly peace. What am I really doing to work toward true peace?
It seems my lent was a bit on the easy breezy side and I'm finding God calling me to step it up a bit. After all, eternal life wasn't won over on the lazy boy watching Jane Austin. "Live a life in a manner worth the call you have received". Sometimes you'd think I thought eternal life was somehow owed to me and all I need to do is sit back and wait for it to happen. Entitled is not a word I use to describe myself, but yet when I think of how many sacrifices I have made to show my gratitude for the Sacrifice that was made for me, it's starting to look like that ugly word.
I would like my life to look a little more like self forgetfulness vs. self righteousness, sacrifice vs. self satisfaction, receiving peace vs. grabbing. I thank God for all the wonderful people he has put in my life to show me these examples of how to live a life worthy of the call and I pray I can spend the rest of the Lenten season working toward receiving the peace that only God can give.