Today I am trying extra hard to choose not to be a wicked wench like Jezebel in the first reading for today. I feel that God has put the choice of choosing death or life- love or hate in front of me today in a very obvious way. If you remember Jezebel, she's the one took her husband's money troubles and made them disappear...by having a Godly man stoned to death. What a wicked woman! In the Gospel today, Jesus tells his disciples to turn the other cheek and not to repay evil with evil. Jezebel had a choice, and she choose death.
Last night, I read a great deal of one of my favorite authors- Dr. Popcak. He writes about a game couples play with each other- marital chicken. I was a little surprised to see this being written in a book because I seriously thought that I was the first to make that game up! I am a real winner winner when it comes to marital chicken because I am very good at being a stubborn wench and choosing not to do the right thing until my husband does it first. My husband jokes that it's the stubborn German girl that I am, but we both know it's my sinful pride that I have a hard time letting go.
Choosing life, choosing love for me means letting go of my pride and letting God's grace take control. It is only in that humble moment that God can work within me. And the more miserable of a wench I am, only means more grace and mercy that God will give me. Thanks be to God!